when i first start shipping something: i need a heart wrenching fic that really captures the characters’ darkness along with an intriguing plot to keep me on my toes
after a while: awww yeah bagel au
Also me: writes 20 pages of an epic fanfic story that never sees the light outside my Google Drive doc 😭
I ❤️ self-loathing characters, characters who struggle with monstrosity (either fearing or embracing it), characters who are so lonely, who have a gaping hole in their chest, who bottle up & repress their feelings, who claw their way up & have ambitions, who fall down & lose everything, who search for identity & purpose yet can’t see themselves outside of what others want from or expect of them, who are hurt & hurt others, who long & grieve, who lie & pretend. characters who are messy & flawed & human
